I ADMIT I LOVE SHOES !!

Never thought my love for shoes would grow bigger than it already is.. Turned out I was wrong ! Apparently the size 10 pair that was thrown at George Bush made me much more interested in SHOES... of course not as interested as that Saudi man who is willing to buy that shoes for any price with the support of his whole neighborhood!!hmm.. I enjoy watching that video over and over again.. And I'm not even close to getting bored of it!! Not yet at least because I'm discovering something new each time.. Specially when comparing how the news is being broadcast in Western and Arab media..What is extremely fun is hearing people's comments about that incident.. A very "interesting" one was: 'sobhan allah, even though the shoes didn't hit Bush but among all the flags behind him it hit the American flag, why not the Saudi? sobhan allah because it has' la ilah illa allah' written all over it'!! now that was like a shock for me.. How more creative can people get??However, barbarian or not, right or not, hit the Saudi flag or not, WHO CARES?? all I can say is: shame on you Montzr Al Zaydi!!How could you miss that jerk's face???

hmmm

I now truely know what it means not to have time 2 itch your head!!!!! I am too exhasuted..
Wake up early for work
From work to uni
From Uni to French course OR From Uni back home again 2 study then back to Uni again
From French course back home to study Or From Uni back home to study the late lecture
Alot of books to read
Not getting enough sleep
But I don't actually want this to end..It's just keeping me from thinking.. I don't want to think about anything at this phase... :S

Dear Diary..

I broke someone's heart today and it doesn't feel well at all.. I'm so depressed!!
Sometimes we can't just do things because we feel like it, we need to consider the consequences because they could be so damaging to the point that all the good times and the sweet memories will be destroyed and vanished!
I wish I could just live the moment.. any moment at any time I want.. I feel so vulnerable and weak .. I have to make him understand, he is just too sweet and special to hurt !!
This is extremely exhausting!

too upset

17 people died today, just like that!! I still can't get over this.. I didn't see it coming and don't know why it feels so shocking..
Now all the investigations and the interfering will start.. The analysis and the interviews.. The pointless speeches.. All the news each one with different point of view.. All in search of the truth.. If only we realized that truth doesn't actually exist, then we wouldn't have had to go through this mess!!
Souls have been wasted today for a reason that only few know.. It doesn't matter who as much as it matters HOW and WHY?!! Or may be the answers to all those questions don't matter as much as the fact that humans should really extinct because the world has had enough!! What else is can we invent to ruin it? I guess religion and policy are more than enough!!!

So Single

It feels so lonely.. I have no one to wish me good night.. I have no one to fight and make up with.. My phone rarely rings.. It is so boring.. But I'd rather stay single than being with some one that is just not worth it..

The Happy Birthday Song

When I was in Paris last month, I went out with this very nice and interesting French guy. We were talking about how it bothered me not being able to understand what he was saying when he stammered in French. So then he said he would sing me a song in French that he was 100% sure I would understand. 'Hit me', I said. And then he started singing. It was hilarious, I did understand actually. He was singing the Happy Birthday song. He noted how amazing the fact that it's just the same melody and lyrics almost all over the world but only with different translations. It never crossed my mind to actually find out how it originally came out before. And then I told him I think it's just one of those things that can't be tracked down. However, I was so curious afterwards and well I just found out that I was wrong. I actually googled it and found millions of results about its history.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Happy_Birthday_to_You
So ironic ha? How we don't give importance to certain things in life!!

On the way to Damascus..

Here I am leaving Latakia … Said my usual goodbyes.. Kissed and hugged everyone.. Wiped the yearly tears.. Left with the image of the bus station.. The crowded, dirty and messy bus station, with all these people staring and all these men shouting 'sham', 'Hums', 'Tartous' … They really get on my nerves but no one ever does anything about it..I love this place, but really hate it.. Syria, my homeland.. My origin.. My roots .. what does this really mean!! I can't handle this mess anymore but I can't stop coming here, for all the memories and all my beloved ones.. As I look back at this summer and re live its every detail and every experience.. All the new things I tried.. All the people I met.. I know it is a whole new phase for me..

(Written on the bus, 7-September-2008)